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[arcanetrivia]

I seem to be going through some sort of bout of depression lately. If I say anything to you that sounds cranky(-ier than usual) or butt-hurt/drama/flouncy or otherwise extra whiny in its frustration or despair, please to be cutting a little slack. It's taking most of my mental spoons not to freak out or break down crying over failures and being a disappointment to all and sundry lately.

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[mimimanderly.livejournal.com]

*Hugs* Oh, Sweetie... I'm so sorry. I know how it is. I suffer from frequent, random bouts of depression, myself. Sometimes the only thing that keeps me from just cutting to the chase is the belief that I'll have to come back to finish whatever the fuck I'm here to do in the first place. I'd rather just dig in, and do whatever it is now, so I don't have to come back. In any case, know that you have made a difference in MY life, for one, and that I will go easy on you because I know what a bitch you can be (I'm trying to be funny... okay?... Don't hurt me....)

I am currently reading a book that you mentioned months ago on Sexual Alchemy. Both my Muse and I are finding it quite enlightening. He says, "Thanks", btw!

[elethian.livejournal.com]

because I know what a bitch you can be

Oh yes, quite a dangerous creature, me. Rawr.

I am currently reading a book that you mentioned months ago on Sexual Alchemy. Both my Muse and I are finding it quite enlightening.

Really? I'm glad for you then. I finally read it straight through when I was sick over Memorial Day weekend, and while I liked the beginning and the last chapter or two where he actually talked about the White and Red Powders and the Oil of Lilith, I found myself disappointed by the middle half to three-quarters being often spent on basic ceremonial magic techniques. I suppose it's not a waste if you're not already familiar, and I suppose I should expect a magician to write in their own mode of practice, but it seems to me that the general phenomenon (having sexual or loving relations with spirit entities) can be entirely divorced from those trappings, and I wished he'd discussed it more in more general terms and techniques. The "telesmatic images" thing for forming images and sigils from names or "job descriptions" was also a little odd, not to mention difficult to adapt to names that don't conform to Hebrew forms. The study and understanding of the mystical applications of the Hebrew alphabet is really too complicated to squeeze into a space like that and I found it more confusing than useful in that context.

He says, "Thanks", btw!

What, for a good time? ;)

[mimimanderly.livejournal.com]

Yes, a lot of the book does seem to cover basic ceremonial magick. I don't see the need for all that ceremony if one already has a spirit companion. It is all just a focusing agent, after all. There were bits in there that explained things that my Muse has "given" me, and I've found that helpful. I'm hoping that he will touch more upon "strengthening the signal", so to speak.

[fenm.livejournal.com]

Awwww...
[hug]
Do you think you might need some help, or do you think you'll pull through it soon?

[fera_festiva]

*giant hugs*

I know we don't know each other super-well or anything, but if you want to talk ever, I'm here to listen.

*more hugs*

[elethian.livejournal.com]

*giant hugs*

*is crushed to death by giant*

...oops.

Er, someone get a mop, eh?

[lilyevans-snape.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I emailed you.

[elethian.livejournal.com]

Eh? I must have missed it...

[coyotegoth.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear; hope it abates soon.

[anglerfish07.livejournal.com]

*hugs* If you want to talk, you can email or message me, OK? I hope that things will work out for you soon. I hope that things will work out for you sooner or later.

Have you got a good therapist you can talk to, or people offline who can offer you some support?

If you're interested, here's a list of registered counsellors in California: http://www.california-registry.org/

http://www.depression.com/ US site on depression

*hugs*